Thursday, November 19, 2015
@ 3:41 AM | 0 Shhhh . .
Love in paris ~
Everything has been going up and down lately. Alot of mix feeling, alot of complications, i guess. Super stress up with work whereby I'm doing 3 person role (operation, purchaser, half logistic & half HR) gonna soon be promoted from superwoman to crazy woman. Haha! Gladly the company had finally secured the airport project. Hope everything will soon be smooth sailing. I'm in a dilemma if I should go for a new job considering the fact of my profile and salary but it just seem right for me to go with worries. Hmm.. how could i make a decision?
Got a peace of mind when I saw Lucas vietnam trip moments. Tho I'm unsure if it was his game or real but at least I know someone would be taking care of him. Every time he pops in my life, it feels like yesterday once more. From the moment of going to Malaysia with a stranger to a couple to a complicated relation. Flashback happens like I'm living in the moment forever but not every story has a ending which makes me kinda settled myself to place a fullstop. I really can't live with myself having the same dream where neither of us would be sure to try it all over again either could I continue mine selfishness. As much as i crave that dreams would be reality, i just can't hang it all in the air over and over again. Guess, even my girlfriends knows how happy I would be as they have stopped nagging and started disturbing. Haha! Having to settle myself, i took a bet and apply for a house. If its approves, i would leave everything to how life wants me to go. No more stubbornness, no more complication and all playfulness shall stop.
Got myself a beautiful tattoo as a remembrance of my heart. It will also be a symbol that all mix emotion should end. Like the pain that linger through my skin, a secret that I would not reveal. This shall be my last gift for you as for the wallet and manicure session, guess she would be a more suitable person to provide for you. Hope that everlasting hapiness would be like the butterflies in your stomach and wonders would pop to complete you. It shall always be all or nothing...
