Monday, June 24, 2013
@ 12:21 AM | 0 Shhhh . .
We knew but it's best left unsaid!
~ After that day where Lucas delivered inhaler to me, I been thinking a lot. Maybe leaving things unsaid was just us. For a moment that day, I did thought of not pushing him away but back to my principle rights, I can't be unfair. I had never betray him throughout all this while neither will can I betray others because of him. Anyway back track a little, about 1 month or 2 back then. As usual, parties, drinks and not obligation. Met a weird person or maybe should I phase it as behaving weird to give others wrong impression. Don't know why I kinda read him quite well which interest me to know what soul is hiding behind this shell. There's came Timo popping into my life, surprisingly of him being able to accept my complication with Lucas. I gave my promise to be fateful and fateful will I be. Anyway Lucas did said something which melts me that day but I couldn't find any reason to admit or agree with him. I asked myself, should I fight again or should I go? I left... Knowing him so well, guess it's best we walk separated ways. Not leaving, not hurting, not escaping and etc; I don't know what can he fulfill. It's time for me to move on, both you and me. Don't even understand why I am typing all this now, sounds scrambled and messy anyhow. Just wanna tell him that he didn't lose me but I just can't be like how we used to be. I will still be there when he needs me but I have to draw the line and make things right. I will miss him, really much. May he be blessed with all the best...
