Wednesday, February 27, 2013
@ 4:58 AM | 0 Shhhh . .
Are You Kidding Me?!
~ I don't understand what's wrong and definitely not liking the results of the check at the doctor. Is this a curse brought on me or? Once again, i'm crying here alone and it sucks big time! Infection that will other cause me to be pregnant now or it will burn my organs and cause incapability of pregnancy in future. The first time was that and now it was this. How much more pain could i handle? How many more time must my hope of having a family be vanish? Painful inside out :'( Worst part was that my mum was there when the doctor mention all this time and the next moment i'm left in this house alone again. I'm going emotionally bonkers! I always accept his apology whenever things happen but by the end of the day i didn't know how to face myself. I was never that strong and fierce girl i seems to be, i was never the one that didn't needed tender loving care and concern. I'm tremendously afraid, hurtfully terrific. Oh lord, why are you doing this to me? Every night i cuddle myself up and think, why am i holding on to this, what am i forgiving, why am i loving and i couldn't find an answer...
