Saturday, January 5, 2013
@ 10:34 AM | 0 Shhhh . .
When Life Pushes Me Down!
~ I had bad cries even since a new year start. Wondering if 2013 will be a good year but no matter how hard life pushes me down, i believe that there is always blessing in disguise. Do admit that i'm very selfless when it comes to my love ones and back to back i've been getting myself a lot of scars. After cries, after anger and everything else i will always forgive them because i love them. Loving them is part of me but it doesn't mean i will forsake my own principles. Quite disappointed with sister Cassandra and it ain't because i got hurt while helping her. I believe much in faithfulness, one person heart can only be limited to one when in love. One can change a lot of boyfriends but only can be faith to one at a time. In this complicated world, i don't expect much from a person but basic moral are what that kept us living. Peace is something i arch to have most. Knowing and not seeing my girlfriend having tiny wars somehow makes me uneasy. It's heart knots that they must untie themselves, no doubt that i would want to do something about it but there's nothing except to keep them occupied individually for the moment. Don't wish to witness my lovely group splitting. Sephi or Lucas maybe they are still the same person that i love most after all. I gave him a chance to explain for the words he hurt me with. I accept his apology tho he is kind of dumb at it. The protected feeling that he gave, i strongly sense it once again. Every time i felt that he is hurting me, i will run and meet new and old people but i couldn't find anyone whom makes me feel protected. The very last person who gave me this feeling before Sephi was Aik Hoe and come to think of it seem to be lost for a very very long time. Anyway for this refreshing start or should i say i'm finally going to sense study life again, i look back at past photos and hug my memories. One thing that i'm crystal clear about was that i'm never gonna be that little girl again. Only could make myself a better lady now. Guess the time is coming, which stage will i turn to now? How will the next chapter be?
