Monday, December 31, 2012
@ 10:54 PM | 0 Shhhh . .
Maybe I'm Wrong!
~ Working in Zouk was nice, the environment is entertaining but messy, enjoyable but tiring. Sadly, i left. Due to my upcoming studies, due to not making him upset. Everything seem like it doesn't matter anymore. Sometimes i wonder, why can't he be more like a vampire? More of romance and thriller instead of sadness and miserable. He had started to make me believe that i was wrong thinking that he do understand. He didn't, did he? I really don't mind him making me spend Christmas and New Year myself but words coming from him really hurt so much. I detest tears in the night, detest spending effort but i still ended up in tears. I really took a lot of effort to avoid doing stuffs he dislike, went through a really hard time persuading everyone whom cared for me that he ain't that bad after all and i did rejected a lot of outing a lot of people.Why must he always make me regret wanting to change for him, why must he always go hard on me knowing it will never work, why must he be so blunt and hurt me? Sometime strangers comfort him more than me. I took Baby Kitee words to deaf even thought i know this whole hidden thing is very unhealthy, i knew it and know it well. I just wanted all of them to believe and accept my choice but now i don't know. It's suffocating and i'm going out of breathe. Somewhere in me, there is just this soul that wishes someone or anyone to give him a really tied slap across his face and explain it all to him!
