Wednesday, December 12, 2012
@ 7:49 AM | 0 Shhhh . .
Disaster!
~ This few days have been real bad, still trying to fix everything in order after a big mess. Everyone seem to be so busy and i know i have to handle it myself. Really wish that someone would accompany me for this mean while but i didn't wanna disturb anyone. I didn't mention how stress and dishearten i was emotionally. Kinda spill a little out to Sephi but he don't seem to agree with my choice and decision. In fact, i really didn't have much choice because i'd agreed to commitments which i can't back out now. How i wish he could not keep getting angry and support me instead, what a daydream i guess. Other than being attacked by my own problems, the war between adults is causing me a big headache. Don't understand why they love getting me involved in all this. What is there to fight? Is it really that important to them that i was whoever daughter? It's so doubting! Staying home this few days allow me to have a clearer view of each an everyone including him. I saw those that really cared and those that think more of themselves. As for him, i realize our understanding level is different or maybe low. I'm not giving up but i need to rest it awhile. I don't want him to worried neither do i want him to get mad no more and solution to all this, i have to get all things right as soon as possible. Mum and sister Cassandra has been supportive too, i'm thankful for it. Solution, consideration and decision are very important terms to me now. I must do it right and am having high expectation of myself. I wanna stand up by myself without support, wanna prove that they had put a wrong blame on me previously, wanna have the little girl in a stronger manner this time. I don't wanna feel helpless and not able to retaliate...
