Sunday, November 18, 2012
@ 7:04 AM | 0 Shhhh . .
Chasing Pavement!
~ Once again i fall back into his arms. Still the same, clueless about what's on his mind. Is he still uncertain even till today? Don't understand why am i giving everything a benefit of a doubt. Knowing very clearly that if nothing gonna change between us there's definitely be more pain and scars. Anyway i have been like a kid lately, crying and throwing tantrum when i'm sick. Two days of fever and without appetite, finally pulled it through a little. Movie, dinner and the usual just continue spinning and best part to fake that smile at times was to pretend that nothing hurt even a little. Just in a few split moment and yes, he became in front of everyone again. Only thing in my mind this time was that this dam fool is in deep shit! Exactly how i felt was exactly what happen. My peeps been very nice and know that i'm not willing to explain my relation with him anyhow, i just don't wish them to understand much when tears start rolling. Afraid that someday they will disappear like how Irfan Di did. I don't wish to loss anyone that is so close to me once again. A leopard doesn't change it spot, what a huge risk, losing it all in a switch. Am i ready? Frankly speaking i'm not... 爱与恨
