Saturday, May 19, 2012
@ 9:59 AM | 0 Shhhh . .
FAMILY, What Does That Means?!
~ Been going crazy with this big word family, it's kinda meaningless to me now. Seriously who am i to them? What am i? Suddenly feeling so awake realizing that i should be much better to myself because no one will be nice. Their all about their world, their needs, their wants and i have enough of it! Why should i always give in to everything, go with their flow and what about me? My faith is getting weaker and some thoughts just makes me feel that i should be free from this struggle. I ran around trying to feel my heartbeat, get tired and leaves my mind empty. Didn't speak much recently, couldn't find the right word to fit my thoughts. Maybe sometimes is good to not speak "/ I remember very clearly the words said by someone "I'm on my own now and i will do better if i start to abandon everything". I don't know being silent is good or not, being divided with this dangerous world is good or not. Starts with monday, i'm gonna climb my way up just for myself, everything is just gonna be me. Pumping ice into my blood, turn everything into ice and i shall not allow anyone to melt me ever again! Mawkish words are never my style but when i want to do something nice to someone yet not appreciated then they better don't expect anything else from me again. Me, myself and i. I will remember this...
