Monday, May 28, 2012
@ 5:33 AM | 0 Shhhh . .
Chaotic Break Free!
~ Pass few days have been long, longer and longest ever. Hate Sephi reappearance once again but i'm glad i borrowed some strength from Sister Ryan, Cat, Sister Xiao Hei and Qi Jie. I feel reluctant, trying to escape from him again and again. A lot of thoughts in my mind, a lot of words in my ears. No words could make me explain clearly why i didn't push him away. I'm in a very clear state of mind that there isn't feeling in this mess, just that i don't know how to put it to him. At many point of time he seem like a child in front of me, makes me think a lot, makes me don't wish to be bad to him. Got some courage from them and i tried to ignore him as much as possible. I know what i'm holding back wasn't him, i know that i like someone else. Me and Sephi was dump way back when i make up that decision. I'm not leaving in his circle but my decision circle. I went to crazy nonsense, drinking, medicating and playing in the rain. Anyway, good news i finally could hand on with my job and time flys (: Enjoy it much like back in time, getting busy every minute makes life much more beautiful. I want a better life, a better moment and a silent me ^^ Forgo what i wanted, pamper what i needed and enjoy what is mine! Hope everyday will be a better day, let's keep the faith running on and on and on!
