~ Bad headache and the on off fever is killing me. Really don't feel like going to work but i force myself and rush off to work. Ate a green apple for breakfast and one of the colleague gave me another ^^ Haha! Super dizzy the whole day but i gathered all my strength and hit the gym with Hiroshi. Trying to lose weight as Sephi always say that i'm fat "/ He was like saying that i shouldn't this shouldn't that again. Can't understand why he also complain and request :( We opened up a little more and chat. I told him that i wanted time which it's like impossible. He loves his job and we are like staying so far away. Sometimes i've been thinking if i only his company have vacancy then i can work with him at least i could see him more often. He gotta work and will be traveling around, there's really so little of time but i guess he won't like it if i go to his company. If only i could be like him, being occupy by work and be able to travel around. I really love to travel around but just didn't have luck like this. I couldn't stand being alone that's why i always go out. It's tiring to do that but i just want a companion. Sorting out all answers and i still can't get results. He wants me to be good but i really don't know how to overcome being alone, numbing myself isn't a good way. How well does he know me? How long more will this roundabout continue? Is my faith strong enough?

~ Bad headache and the on off fever is killing me. Really don't feel like going to work but i force myself and rush off to work. Ate a green apple for breakfast and one of the colleague gave me another ^^ Haha! Super dizzy the whole day but i gathered all my strength and hit the gym with Hiroshi. Trying to lose weight as Sephi always say that i'm fat "/ He was like saying that i shouldn't this shouldn't that again. Can't understand why he also complain and request :( We opened up a little more and chat. I told him that i wanted time which it's like impossible. He loves his job and we are like staying so far away. Sometimes i've been thinking if i only his company have vacancy then i can work with him at least i could see him more often. He gotta work and will be traveling around, there's really so little of time but i guess he won't like it if i go to his company. If only i could be like him, being occupy by work and be able to travel around. I really love to travel around but just didn't have luck like this. I couldn't stand being alone that's why i always go out. It's tiring to do that but i just want a companion. Sorting out all answers and i still can't get results. He wants me to be good but i really don't know how to overcome being alone, numbing myself isn't a good way. How well does he know me? How long more will this roundabout continue? Is my faith strong enough?