~ I release myself today, found back myself and the smile. Realize that i did change a lot. I allow the devil in me to build up concrete walls and hide the angel to protect myself. Almost couldn't recognize myself, it just feels weird... Work was fine today, i tried again to be nice to them. Went lunch with them at beach road. Was quite quiet while with them, shall do things slow. Adapt! Met sister Cassandra after work at Nex. We went eating, shopping and cut our hair ^^ She confess that she was angry with me knowing that i contact Sephi again. She just totally detest him for hurting me ya! I don't like carrying wounds in me, Physical pain is always better than emotional pain. I will use all my strength to face it rather than feeling the pain deeply in me. Cut my hair like how it used to be, totally thin and i felt much alive again. My heels spoil and spoil again :( Seriously need to fix it all during my free time. Sister Cassandra brought me a long dress as a birthday gift for me ^^ I got blue and she got black and we are all going to wear it on my birthday (: Yeah! Yeah!

~ I release myself today, found back myself and the smile. Realize that i did change a lot. I allow the devil in me to build up concrete walls and hide the angel to protect myself. Almost couldn't recognize myself, it just feels weird... Work was fine today, i tried again to be nice to them. Went lunch with them at beach road. Was quite quiet while with them, shall do things slow. Adapt! Met sister Cassandra after work at Nex. We went eating, shopping and cut our hair ^^ She confess that she was angry with me knowing that i contact Sephi again. She just totally detest him for hurting me ya! I don't like carrying wounds in me, Physical pain is always better than emotional pain. I will use all my strength to face it rather than feeling the pain deeply in me. Cut my hair like how it used to be, totally thin and i felt much alive again. My heels spoil and spoil again :( Seriously need to fix it all during my free time. Sister Cassandra brought me a long dress as a birthday gift for me ^^ I got blue and she got black and we are all going to wear it on my birthday (: Yeah! Yeah!