Monday, March 12, 2012
@ 9:01 AM | 0 Shhhh . .
Fucking World Fucking Unfair!
~ Today was a total Monday blue! Everything don't seem to be smooth when i tried to be Angela, the happy go lucky girl. I failed so i start to put up my mask Joyce again, the faking girl. Lunch at Bra Basah market with the office Fu Lu Shou. Had some chat and know quite a few knowledge about work. Hit back to the office and horror started brushing into my world. Freaking PRC calls just keep coming non stop. Seriously don't understand why Singapore when they wanna locate someone in China. I don't have any China main line number and they don't understand at all. Keep insisting me to transfer the calls to the big bosses. Kills all my energy for the day entertaining their calls. Day ends and now is time for the night, everything was going slow, not much of customers. Calvin pissed me off when he destroy my coastal drawing, Nian Jie was purposely disturbing me. Try to ignore, try to avoid and i continue to do my job. Out of the blue Rossa came over to me telling that Kelvin wants me to stand outside so i was questioning. Then Kelvin was like telling me i talk too much when all this while i've been irritated by them after a tiring day. I so don't feel like standing outside as all regular customers are there. Felt sick to entertain them and talking craps, seeing all those uncles and get praises that my smile is sweet makes me feel sick. The next moment Rossa came over and said that Kelvin requested me to knock off at 11pm as there isn't much customer today. I seriously felt that it's a sickening excuse! Why am i the only one out of this blue moon? Not as if i'm not doing my job as a waitress, i serve when service is needed on the table, don't expect me to put up my big smile for everyone when i'm not serving any customer, i will look like an insane this way. It's ridiculous to me, if i really wanna entertain customers so much i will work in a pub instead of a bar. They jolly well pays better. I really don't know what have i done wrong. You freaking drink and there isn't much customer doesn't mean you can crash my professionalism toward my job this way. I'm not pay to entertain customers for you, i don't get tip or commission for anything. Satisfying customer needs is my job, cheering them up is an additional thing that i hope customers to feel nice coming here. The foods are always serve up slow, reservation are not properly done and a lot full of shit that customer is complaining about. If only April could come fast, i wanna go back to study fast. Everyone thought i really love to entertain all those customer and get myself so died working two jobs. I need fucking money, what to do? I need connection, i'm a growing girl. Who will really think that a girl like me will strive my way out? Everyone judge, judge and judge! Someday i will crash all of you stepping stones down!
