~ 3 hours of rest and i manage to wake for my first day at Flextronic. Being a receptionist aren't that hard. I learned a lot today and manage to pick it all up fast as usual. Nothing is hard as long as i learn (: Hit over to Quarubar for the second round of work, super tiring. Had a nice chat with customer and business was going slow tonight. So sweet of Calvin for making a cup of coffee for me but sadly my body rejected it and i vomited. Still disappoint with Sephi as after so long, i still don't feel the trust. I tried all excuses but i still drank tonight. 14 oh 14 i detest it! Boss Danny just won't let me off if i don't drink. Haha! I didn't explain myself to him this time round as i get tired trying hard to explain to him always. Maybe i commit too much being with him but i must be stronger to pull through all this. I pour out a lot tonight, i even explain to Calvin why i couldn't accept anyone right now. Calvin said that i'm picking hope in Sephi instead of having faith in him, so i replied like Dr. Robi Sonderegger said "faith is action prompted by knowledge. Reality is revealed when we muster the courage to step out in faith. Exercising faith confirms what we already knew before we saw it". Without faith there won't be hope, maybe i have both but does it matters? I still fall for it aftermath. As a woman i should be locking the one that i love up tightly but i choose to let him free to explore, like i choose to carry everything by myself that time and hope he get happiness with her. I never regret all my decisions but i just don't like being stuck in the middle now. Having to try hard in hiding my feelings and having to just stay by his side. During this few days i almost pour myself up to him but i didn't i pretend to be happy go lucky. How life goes, i really don't know but i know what i want so i just move with the flow and someday i will reach the point where success is at the peak. Happy Valentine's day and half year my love, i don't know where do broken hearts goes but everything i look into your eyes i know that you cared for me.

~ 3 hours of rest and i manage to wake for my first day at Flextronic. Being a receptionist aren't that hard. I learned a lot today and manage to pick it all up fast as usual. Nothing is hard as long as i learn (: Hit over to Quarubar for the second round of work, super tiring. Had a nice chat with customer and business was going slow tonight. So sweet of Calvin for making a cup of coffee for me but sadly my body rejected it and i vomited. Still disappoint with Sephi as after so long, i still don't feel the trust. I tried all excuses but i still drank tonight. 14 oh 14 i detest it! Boss Danny just won't let me off if i don't drink. Haha! I didn't explain myself to him this time round as i get tired trying hard to explain to him always. Maybe i commit too much being with him but i must be stronger to pull through all this. I pour out a lot tonight, i even explain to Calvin why i couldn't accept anyone right now. Calvin said that i'm picking hope in Sephi instead of having faith in him, so i replied like Dr. Robi Sonderegger said "faith is action prompted by knowledge. Reality is revealed when we muster the courage to step out in faith. Exercising faith confirms what we already knew before we saw it". Without faith there won't be hope, maybe i have both but does it matters? I still fall for it aftermath. As a woman i should be locking the one that i love up tightly but i choose to let him free to explore, like i choose to carry everything by myself that time and hope he get happiness with her. I never regret all my decisions but i just don't like being stuck in the middle now. Having to try hard in hiding my feelings and having to just stay by his side. During this few days i almost pour myself up to him but i didn't i pretend to be happy go lucky. How life goes, i really don't know but i know what i want so i just move with the flow and someday i will reach the point where success is at the peak. Happy Valentine's day and half year my love, i don't know where do broken hearts goes but everything i look into your eyes i know that you cared for me.