~ Managed to wake for the interview at Quintessential. The 2nd interview with another Boss Sharon wasn't that bad but i still gotta wait for results as i'm too young. People are all worried that i'm unable to cope by myself even thought i had been through tons of bad experiences, i will prove myself if i'm selected. I don't believe that nothing can't be done as long as we have faith! Had my lunch at Takashimaya and grab bus 14 to Quarubar. I reached an hour earlier so Rosa ask me to start work at 5pm. An extra hour an extra $8, it's worth when i enjoyed the job. Today was super busy, pint and glass was a big trouble, sickening customer also, too bad customers are always right. Had a couple of Asahi was Boss Danny and wife Jenny, Calvin and Nian Jie. The drink session was fun but tonight i seriously misses him a lot. I know things can never be the same, too much of hash decision that we have done but i'm still praying for a little more faith and trust as i believe that he is my one and only! :( Maybe if we didn't make a mess that time or maybe i didn't made up a decision by myself thinking that he will be happy and my decision is worth the while, will we still have possibility? It's a question of a doubt! I can't be like him pretending that nothing had happen, pretending that i didn't care as i really still do! God will be help me? I don't like to be stuck in the middle, it's a torture to me :'( We sang, we laugh and a lot of joy i'm trying to put up with. I know i can't show my unhappiness as everyone wish that i was happy. I live up to others expectation which is actually very tiring but with him, i could be me and only me because i just felt that he understand me although he didn't walk my path but it's warmness that i got from him. I let my tears rolling like before i don't wanna be strong anymore! It sucks totally!!! Calvin was so drunk tonight, he cried as under every roof there is a story that we must face no matter how torturing it is to the heart. I really detest being alone but do i have a choice? Who can actually understand me? I don't wanna be look up by other but to be understood. 忘记你我真的做不到而我每次相信你是爱我的!

~ Managed to wake for the interview at Quintessential. The 2nd interview with another Boss Sharon wasn't that bad but i still gotta wait for results as i'm too young. People are all worried that i'm unable to cope by myself even thought i had been through tons of bad experiences, i will prove myself if i'm selected. I don't believe that nothing can't be done as long as we have faith! Had my lunch at Takashimaya and grab bus 14 to Quarubar. I reached an hour earlier so Rosa ask me to start work at 5pm. An extra hour an extra $8, it's worth when i enjoyed the job. Today was super busy, pint and glass was a big trouble, sickening customer also, too bad customers are always right. Had a couple of Asahi was Boss Danny and wife Jenny, Calvin and Nian Jie. The drink session was fun but tonight i seriously misses him a lot. I know things can never be the same, too much of hash decision that we have done but i'm still praying for a little more faith and trust as i believe that he is my one and only! :( Maybe if we didn't make a mess that time or maybe i didn't made up a decision by myself thinking that he will be happy and my decision is worth the while, will we still have possibility? It's a question of a doubt! I can't be like him pretending that nothing had happen, pretending that i didn't care as i really still do! God will be help me? I don't like to be stuck in the middle, it's a torture to me :'( We sang, we laugh and a lot of joy i'm trying to put up with. I know i can't show my unhappiness as everyone wish that i was happy. I live up to others expectation which is actually very tiring but with him, i could be me and only me because i just felt that he understand me although he didn't walk my path but it's warmness that i got from him. I let my tears rolling like before i don't wanna be strong anymore! It sucks totally!!! Calvin was so drunk tonight, he cried as under every roof there is a story that we must face no matter how torturing it is to the heart. I really detest being alone but do i have a choice? Who can actually understand me? I don't wanna be look up by other but to be understood. 忘记你我真的做不到而我每次相信你是爱我的!